he played me.

Sometimes words are just words. How do you know if someone meant to write them? Say them? Sing them?
For instance, I could write a poem. The most beautiful love poem you've ever read. But I didn't tell you I wrote it just for credit in school. Or just so he'd kiss me.
He could tell me he's so in love with me and that I'm beautiful and unique.
But does he mean it? Or does he just like to kiss?
For me personally, I don't say things I don't mean.
Words like, "I promise" and "I love you" are not thrown around. They are said when I've got eye-contact. When I ACTUALLY feel that way.
So for someone like me, I didn't realize words could be just... Words.
I realize now this is why so many naive girls, like myself, end up heartbroken. They use excuses and lie to everyone, including themselves, saying, "but he loves me, how could he be bad?"
Does he now? Does he love you?
Or does he like the way you "treated" him after he said it.
Did he say it to make you stop crying?
To make you stick around when he's been a jerk?
Maybe I'm just a pessimist.
Maybe I'm just looking for reasons.
An explanation.
Something.
But one thing's for sure.
I'm not falling for it again.

Film Analysis

The Goonies (1985)

Ordinary World: Brandon, Mikey, Mouth, Chunk, and Data, known as The Goonies, are best friends. They are all going lose their homes. This wealthy man is going to build a golf course where they all live in the boondocks. Their houses will be torn down if their families don't come up with some serious money. They are spending their last weekend together. 

Call to Adventure: Mikey and Brandon's dad works for a museum in town. He keeps some of the excess relics in the family attic. The boys venture up to have a look. Mikey finds a map to the treasure of One Eyed Willy. 

Refusal of the Call: All of the boys except Mikey decide that the search for the treasure would be in vain. It was probably just a myth and not worth the time spent searching. Mikey insists that they give it a shot.

Crossing the Threshold: Mouth, Mikey, Chunk, and Data tie Brandon to a chair and sneak out of the house to look for the treasure. They are not ready to leave the boondocks that they love so much. They want to save it and this could be their last chance.

Tests, Allies, Enemies: Within the first few minutes after they leave Mikey's house, they meet the enemies, the Fratellis. They are an Italian family of crime. They have just murdered two federal officers and broken the son out of jail. At this point, the boys don't know that. They unknowingly walk right into the crooks' hideout on their trail to the treasure. The boys spend the remainder of the film narrowly escaping these people.

Approach to the Inmost Cave: After the Fratellis leave the hideout, Mikey and the gang reenter the hideout (an old abandoned restaurant) with the map to find out where their next step in finding the treasure is. They go down to the basement of the building and Chunk spills water on the ground revealing a secret passageway in the fireplace. They also discover the body of one of the federal officers in the freezer shortly after.

The Ordeal: The Fratelli's return to the restaurant and the kids decide the only way out is through the fireplace. They all enter except for Chunk. They send him to find the police. Chunk is apprehended by Mrs. Fratelli and chained up with Sloth. Thus begins the real adventure. The kids in the tunnels below the restaurant are faced with age old "booby traps" and other frightening obstacles. Chunk faces a very scary interrogation and eventually admits to the Fratellis that his friends went down the fireplace in search of treasure. Of course, the family of crime is intrigued. They enter the fireplace.

Reward: The Goonies discover the treasure of One Eyed Willy. Shortly after they arrive, so do the Fratellis. They are very greedy and want the treasure all to themselves.
The Road Back: The treasure that they had picked up was taken from them by the Fratellis and the kids were tied up and preparing to walk the plank of One Eyed Willy's ship. They nearly die when Chunk and Sloth show up to save the day.

The Resurrection: Mikey and the gang fight the Fratellis. They prevail and escape the caves through a small opening that Sloth helps them get through. The Goonies receive justice finally.

Return With the Elixir: Mikey and the Goonies didn't make it out with any treasure and they thought no one would believe their story. Then the ship and all it's contents floats from inside the cave and everyone is very excited. The Goonies save the boondocks. None of them have to move anymore and everyone is happy. The Fratellis are taken into custody for their various crimes. 

from ordinary to extraodrinary

The Wallflower

Charlotte Mae Tucker, or Charlee as she is known by her peers, is an average 18 year old high school student. She gets average grades, has an average attendance record, and has never really received any major recognition... ever. She's a regular wallflower. She loves to write and read. She loves warm summer days and starry nights. She is a receptionist for a local dentist's office. One day, while Charlee is at work, Leo Walker comes in. She's been crushing on him for years. After a few minutes of small talk, both of them are extremely shy, Leo asks if Charlee would like to go out sometime. Charlee has never been noticed before. She is surprised and excited. Her whole world is turned around with the thought that someone, the boy of her dreams, noticed her. Wanted her. Charlee begins to raise her hand in class, speak up for herself, and even voice her opinions. Charlee exhibits confidence in herself for the first time in her 18 years.

Questions:
Do Charlee and Leo end up together?
Will Charlee's newfound confidence be crushed if Leo ever leaves her?
Do Charlee and Leo end up happy?

ode to the underdog.

This is for the other girl. 
For the girls who feel like the other girl.
This is for the lonely girl who peruses the romance section of the library. 
This is for the outcasts. 
This is for those who eat lunch alone. 
For those who don't eat lunch at all.
let it go. 
This is for the girl who cries herself to sleep every night. 
For the boy who caused her heartache. 
This is for all the girls. 
The girls who study every "chick flick" and spend their days waiting for that guy on his noble steed to show up. 
Let it go.
This is for all those who love it when their cell phone declares they've got no service. 
Searching.... 
Let it go. 
This is for the nerds. 
This is for the boys with commitment issues. For the girls who cry over them. 
This is for the broken hearted. 
Let it go.
For the used. 
The stressed. 
The nervous. 
Let it go.
This is for the failures. 
The ones who don't see the potential in themselves. 
The potential to be great. 
Greater than great.
Let it go. 
This is for the single mothers. 
For their daily struggles. 
This is for the sisters. 
The brothers. 
Let it go.
This is for the fakers. 
The pretenders. 
Let it go. If you let it affect you, they win. They are wrong. You know that. Let it go.You are pretty. Someone does love you. You are not alone. Don't be afraid to just be yourself. Yourself is good enough. 




This is for you. 
Are you listening?

forget you.

I keep forgetting. I keep forgetting how much I have. How lucky I am that I live where I do. I keep forgetting to thank them for all they do for me. For all they sacrifice on my behalf. I keep forgetting to say sorry. To swallow my pride and admit I'm wrong. I keep forgetting to enjoy my time here. To stop and smell the roses. I keep forgetting to be comfortable with who I am. To be happy being me. When will we own ourselves completely? I keep forgetting to write in my journal. To clean my room. I keep forgetting where I put my keys. They're around here somewhere... I keep forgetting I'm an adult. Not a child. No more whining and crying. I keep forgetting... on purpose. I keep forgetting to forget you. I keep forgetting I'm not the only person on this earth. I keep forgetting the important things. His birthday. Her wedding day. Oops... I keep forgetting to just breathe. I keep forgetting to be there for you. To hug you and tell you I love you. I just assume you know. I keep forgetting that you might cry, too. I keep forgetting to tell you that you're my best friend. That you're gorgeous and those boys have no clue what they're missing. And tonight is not the last time I'll see the light.

I keep forgetting to... i forgot.

blurBs.

Just Friends By: Jonas Brothers
Nick, a quiet math nerd, wishes that Selena, his best friend, would be his woman. Selena doesn't know of Nick's feelings. She feels the same way. Their relationship slowly grows from a friendship to a relationship.

On Your Porch By: The Format
Nate is an average middle-class boy. His father is really sick. He wants to run from his problems. His father tells him that he loves him and that he's proud of Nate. Nate reminisces on his childhood memories. He love his father and doesn't want to let him go.

Mr. Brightside By: the Killers
Brandon is a heartbroken young man. He has just found out that his girlfriend, Fiona is cheating on him with his best friend, Harry. He loves Fiona far too much to let her go so without a fight. So he pretends like nothing is wrong. One night, Brandon can't take it anymore. In a jealous rage, he rushes over to Harry's apartment, flings open the door to the bedroom and finds the Fiona and Harry. Brandon kills Harry.

Ugly Kids By: Canoe
Mary is Kyle's ex-girlfriend. Even though they're not together, Kyle still likes Mary a lot. Mary goes on a trip to Venezuela with the Peace Corps to get Kyle off her mind. While in Venezuela, she finds Trent. Trent is a pre-med at Yale. Trent also has an award winning smile and rockin' bod. Mary and Trent get engaged. They head back to the states and plan their wedding. Meanwhile, Kyle is still trying to win over Mary's heart. Mary finds Trent cheating on her with her roomate, Natalie. Kyle tries so hard to win her over. Mary won't have any of it.

O Valencia! By: The Decemberists
William and Valencia love each other. Valencia's brother is William's sworn enemy. Valencia and William begin to sneak out every night to see each other in secret. Then one night, Beatrice, Valencia's sister, sees the two running across the lawn hand in hand toward the trees. Beatrice wastes no time telling their father of the incident. He is enraged. When the two arrive home, William is sneaking Valencia back across the lawn when he hears her brother scream, "WILLIAM!" Valencia runs back to Williams side to protect him. Her brother shoots Valencia in the back by accident. Her last words are, "I'll love you forever, William".

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